You'd never know it, but little Miss Hope has her very first cold.
But there was another "first" that wasn't so little today!
Follow these photos to see what she did on her "16 Week Birthday!" I caught this "first" with my camera -
She rolled over!!
"What? I do this all the time?" she said so cooly.
She even performed for me again so I could catch it on video!
The two of us were up a lot during the night. She was congested, so listening to her while she was laying down was brutal for me. She spent much of the night on my chest so she could sleep upright.
Anyone that knows me knows that I'm a bit of a nut when it comes to my children getting sick... or being around people that are sick. It all goes back to when Gavin was two months old.
He had been home a month from the NICU and caught a cold. The cold turned into RSV and he was hospitalized for three months. I'm not sure I ever truly recovered from that experience.
Ever since, I have been a little bit... shall we say... a freak. I was especially nervous around Gavin. In my defense, it was for good reason. Eight times out of ten when Gavin got sick - it turned into something serious.
I'm sure Hope just has a little cold... and it will all be fine. It will all be fine. (It will all be fine... right?)
But it won't keep me from checking on her constantly. I just can't help it. And hey, there are worse hobbies, right? ;-)
This week Hope has grown so much! It's hard to believe that she's sixteen weeks. Next week she'll hit FOUR MONTHS!!
She loves being on her belly and I love seeing how strong she is!!
We are coming up on the one year anniversary of Gavin's death on April 14th.
But it will also be the anniversary of the day we realized Hope existed.
And - after all these months - I still can't believe either. There are days that Ed and I stare at each other and just can't believe our life.
So many changes. So much heartbreak. So much joy. So much pain...
And so much healing.
Gavin's life - and Hope's mere existence - prove that healing is always possible...
...in every area of our lives.
I'll never stop believing in that.