Monday, December 2, 2013

Together...

This was the scene last night in the NICU.  I came downstairs feeling rather defeated, which I promptly poured out in my journal from yesterday.  The doctor had told me not to get my hopes up.  That Hope would need to be weaned off the C-Pap and, basically, jump through several hoops before she would be discharged.  It was likely she would be discharged AFTER I went home - which was so upsetting to me.  I sat on my hospital bed and shed some tears and worked on my pumping.  When I finally collected some colostrum (2mL!  Woo Hoo!) I wanted to bring it up to the NICU.
I got up to the NICU around 10:30 and was greeted by a very happy nurse who seemed very excited to see me.  "I was going to call you," she said.  "We're going to take Hope off the C-Pap.  Would you like to nurse her?"

WHAT?!?!?!?!?

In what seemed like a nanosecond, Hope turned a corner!  Ed had gone home to sleep for the night and it was just me and my iPhone to capture the moment.
Hope latched on and breastfed like a champ.  And we sat together for a long while - something I had deeply longed for.  The nurse and I arranged for me to come back to the NICU for feedings at 2 and 5am.  I had the best nurses last night - Kelly, Sara and Marianne in Post Partum that were super supportive and were sure that I was awoken 15 minutes before feeding time so they could wheel me up to Hope.  And then Maria in the NICU who helped me with my breastfeeding (I'm a little rusty!) and was so positive about Hope's progress.

By morning, everyone - including the doctor - was impressed with Hope's quick turnaround.  Soon the feeding tube was pulled... and the IV was cut in half... and next thing I knew, they told me she could graduate out of the NICU and into my hospital room.  To stay.

I couldn't wait for Ed to get to the hospital so he could see our daughter without any straps or wires or C-Pap.  He was so, so happy.
I was shocked... but I guess I shouldn't be surprised that everything changed on a dime.
Our little angel has quite an angel watching over her.
I'm overjoyed to have her with me in the room.  I placed her on my pillows to take photos of her sweet face and couldn't help noticing that she looked like she was floating on clouds.  I know tonight I will study her as she nurses...and begin to memorize every inch of her.  My daughter.  I am so lucky.

And we will leave this hospital as we entered...
...together.


71 comments:

  1. beautiful <3 (you need a tab for Hope on the blog now) I keep posting it, but I'm so so very happy for your family. So happy. God bless all of you as you begin another journey together.

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  2. Beautiful, just beautiful. Praise God! She looks like her Daddy and Gavin.

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  3. Aww shes so lovely. Many many congratulations to you all on her birth and progress. She sure has the best guardian angel ever.

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  4. That's so fantastic - I'm so, so happy for you, for all of you! I've read your posts for quite some time, but never posted because I didn't know what to say, but I think you have a great voice and I took your Love Bomb idea and have done it with my son and he LOVES it when I surprise him, so thank you for that.......all the best to you and your family.

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  5. She is beautiful and is a lucky little girl to call you Mom! I have followed your blog for only a short time, but I have learned so much as to what kind of person, mother and wife you are. There are some very lucky people in this world that call you theirs!!! Enjoy your sweet baby girl and her big brother.

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  6. She is beautiful and amazing. A true gift sent straight from heaven. Congratulations once again. So thrilled and beyond happy for you!

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  7. Thanks for sharing such a intimate and beautiful experience with us. So very happy for you and your family, you so deserve it.
    I truly believe that Gavin watched over her. She couldn't have had a sweeter angel, could she. xx

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  8. This is so wonderful! I too shared your same scare of having to leave the hospital without my son, my first born, a 33 weeker. By the grace of God, over night, his first night, he too, turned the corner and my precious OBGYN pulled every string so that I could remain in-patient the 4 days he had to stay in the hospital so we could leave together...no tubes. ..no oxygen..no monitors! He is now 17 and about to graduate early and head off to serve out country in the US Army! I pray nothing but the best for you and your family and your new Hope!

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  9. so happy for you.

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  10. It's all good....

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  11. Again, I shut my computer with tears in my eyes...at least this time, they're the happy kind...cheers to you and your family!!

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  12. So happy for you! Tearing up reading it and just heart bursting with joy for you!

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  13. I am SO happy for you!!!!!!!!

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  14. Such a beautiful baby and such wonderful news

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  15. Our God is an awesome God! Prayers for your family.

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  16. Congratulations Leong family! Such happy news!

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  17. YAYYYYYYY! I have goosebumps! Enjoy that sweet little lady!!!!!

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  18. Amazingly overjoyed for you all. Yes. She has an angel indeed.

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  19. Oh, I am SO thrilled by this wonderful news of Hope's progress! And it just makes me think of sweet, gentle Gavin for some reason and how he seems to be playing a part in all of this. It is so evident that he wanted this joy & happiness 'willed' upon his mommy, daddy, & brother to replace their tears of sorrow with tears of joy. That sweet soul of Gavin is always shining through.

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  20. Naww, such a beautiful post. I remember c-pap. My son was born the same weeks early that hope and weighed 6lbs. He only stayed for 9 days, but sounds like your little one will be home sooner than that. <3. So, so happy for you. :)

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  21. So, so, so happy for you all. Enjoy!!

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  22. This is amazing. I needed some good news today. So happy for you. Hope looks just like the boys. She's beautiful.

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  23. She is beautiful. Truly a miracle and a gift. I am so happy for your entire family. Congratulations.

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  24. What a blessing! Congratualtions she is wonderful!

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  25. I am beyond happy for you! You deserve all of this goodness and more! Many blessings to you as you leave the hospital together. I know what it is like to leave the hospital while your newborn stays in NICU. Very hard. Hope is so beautiful!

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  26. I'm crying tears of JOY for you Kate. So deserving of so much joy. Hope is a miracle as are your Brian and Gavin. Bless you and enjoy your family!

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  27. They say there is a first time for everything! Enjoy all the "firsts" you can get and MANY, MANY Happy Blessings to you and your family!!!!

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  28. I am so happy for you and your family!!! Congratulations on getting to take her with you when you leave!!!

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  29. Perfect, happy news!! Hope is a cutie!

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  30. I am so excited for you all! What a miracle to have her completely turn around! No doubt the work of Gavin and Darcy! So, so incredible. I wish nothing but the best for all of you.

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    1. AMEN I am so very happy for you an your family ...Your two little ANGLES are working together for their whole family...GOD BLESS hugs for everyone...

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  31. What a wonderful way to end the day but to sit down and see such beautiful happy news about your family!! Hope is perfect! She has no idea how what the world has in-store for her but I predict big things. With such a loving family and precious angels watching over her...how could she not!! ~Wendy~

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  32. Oh, Kate! I am so, very happy for you, Ed and Brian! She is absolutely beautiful and perfect in every way! Love the hat!

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  33. Happy tears for you all. She is seriously cute! Now, I wish you luck and strength. Luck that you have a good eater and sleeper . And, strength, because no matter how desperately a baby is wanted and how blessed their arrival, newborns are a flat out hard work. Stay strong Little Mama! Heal fast.

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  34. She looks so much like Brian I think! Congratulations - prayers for continued health and strength for all of you! :) She's such a sweetie!

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  35. She is so beautiful!!! Its bringing me to tears she is such a miracle and she has amazing angels watching over her. Many blessings and congratulations to you, Ed, Brian, and ~Gavin~. Xoxoxo

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  36. Congratulations! She is so beautiful. I am so incredibly happy for your family.
    Holly

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  37. What a beautiful gift from Gavin ��

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  38. Congratulations! You and your family deserve every happiness. She's just beautiful and I imagine her two guardian angels, Gavin and Darcy, will always watch over her.

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  39. Wonderful!!!!! So happy for you and Hope. Soak in every bit of her!!

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  40. Congratulations! She is so, so beautiful. Thank you for opening your lives to us and sharing a bit of Hope with us all!
    -Michelle

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  41. soooo happy to hear this wonderful news. she is beautiful!!! Congratulations to you and your family!!!

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  42. Tears! Your story is so amazing and so inspiring. Hope is absolutely beautiful. I think she looks like Brian! So happy for you all.

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  43. YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  44. Wonderful!!! That bought a tear to my eye :) She is such a beautiful little girl, I think that she has Brian's mouth. Lots of love and best wishes to you all.

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  45. Wonderful news! So happy for you family!

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  46. WOW! she is absolutely gorgeous Kate. Congratulations to you and your family. Prayers for continued blessings! -Genevie

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  47. I am so overjoyed for you and your family! Hope is absolutely beautiful and such a little angel.

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  48. I'm happy for you. She's so teeny and perfect. I didn't notice how small she is until I saw the picture of your hubby holding her.

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  49. Blessed, blessed, blessed, blessed!

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  50. She is just GORGEOUS! You are so blessed, all of you! My prayers are still with you every day!

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  51. Crying happy tears for you. You deserve all the happiness in the world. I remember when my youngest was born, feeling sad that he never got to meet his sister who had passed away but then someone told me that they probably did meet and wave to each other as they went by in the clouds. I've always loved that thought.

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  52. Congratulations to all of you. I think she looks like her big brother, Brian.

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  53. Feeling such joy for you. What a beautiful, blessed baby Hope is! And how lucky she is to have you as her Mama.

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  54. Yay! :) You are so adorable Hope Margaret Leong!

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  55. I got chills reading this. Gavin is an awesome angel :)

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  56. I follow your posts all the time, but I'm not really a commenter. I just wanted you to know how happy I am that your family is doing so well, and that Hope is so much better. I pray for your family. You're an amazingly strong woman and mother (even if sometimes if feels like you're barely holding it together).

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  57. Congratulations!!! Hope is beautiful!

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  58. Huge congrats on Hope's birth, and on her transition to her your room! We went through a very similar birth situation. I had a scheduled C-section due to placenta previa. My little boy was 38+2, but he still had respiratory distress (so cooking Hope longer may not have eliminated the breathing troubles). I got to hold him for 30 seconds while they changed equipment (a few hours after he was born), and then he was transferred to another hospital. I got to go to the same hospital the next day, the CPAP was surprisingly off, and I breastfed him for the first time when he was 24 hours old (not easy with so many wires, eh?). After another night in the NICU, he was brought to my room, and we went home on schedule together :) I wish you all the best. Please remember to take care of yourself. Lots of love from Canada.

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  59. So happy for you, so glad that corner was turned & so quickly. And my goodness, Hope sure looks like Brian! (And her daddy.) Congrats to a beautiful family.

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  60. She has Gavin's soul. :)

    Stephanie from Portland

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  61. Great news, I am so happy for you! What a blessing!

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  62. She looks like Brian!!! :) many blessings Kate...thankful for the safe delivery of a healthy child. Cheering you on from ohio!!!

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  63. Beautiful, beautiful! Love reading your words and seeing pictures of Hope. Congratulations to you, Ed and Brian. Her big brother is surely looking out for her!

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  64. Wonderful news. She is beautiful! Congrats to you & your family. Welcome to the world Hope :) You bring "Hope" to alot of people!!

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  65. She is beautiful!! Congrats to you & the entire family!! Welcome to the world Hope!! You bring such "hope" to many :)

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  66. Through happy tears I praise the good Lord and Gavin for seeing Hope through. She is a beautiful ray of sunshine!!

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  67. So exciting Kate! I am so happy to hear all this good news. Hope is a lucky girl, all these wonderful people here to greet her and watching over her. She will so loved. Lucy

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