Tuesday, June 19, 2012

The End.

Just got the call.


Negative.


Although it was what I expected, I hoped for a crazy "one in a million" positive outcome.


It's the end of the road.  The end of my dream.  For many years now my identity has been wrapped around conception.  Unfortunately, as a child, I had no idea that my dream of having several children would become a difficult journey with so many road blocks. 


I am heartbroken.  I want a "do over" - but I know that won't happen.  And I'm tired of dreaming of things that will never be.





28 comments:

  1. ((((HUGS)))) I don't know what else to do....I could say I understand but I don't...I did had infertility issues but not to the extreme that you have had.....I just don't know what to say or do except let you know that I have been a follower since the caringbridge days & I am praying.........
    Kim <3

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  2. Kate, my heart breaks for you. I'll be praying for peace for you and your family. May God cradle you in his hands today.

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  3. *hugs*, Kate. I'm so sorry. I'm praying for you - for peace and comfort.

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  4. So sorry. Holding you in my heart.

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  5. Love you Kate. I'm so sorry.
    Cyndi

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  6. I'm so sorry Kate. I'll be thinking of you often and hoping that peace comes soon.

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  7. Sorry, I'll be praying and thinking of you and your family.

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  8. As soon as I saw your title for today's post, my heart sank! I am so sorry. Praying for you to find peace. Hugs and good thoughts sent your way.

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  9. I am so sorry Kate. I've prayed along with you since I started following you on Caringbridge. I wish I had words to ease your pain. Just know that a big hug is coming to you from Illinois.

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  10. I am sorry to hear this! I was praying you would have great news. I have also followed you since Caringbridge. May God grant you acceptance for whatever He has in store.
    Allison

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  11. Oh Kate, I am so sorry to hear this. I was so hoping that this was your month, that you would have good news to share with us. Please take care of yourself during this sad time and know that A LOT of people are thinking about you.

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  12. We have you in our thoughts and prayers.
    xoxoxo
    Geoff, Elayne, Ali, Drew AND Lucy!

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  13. I am so sorry. I know how hard it is when you want a third child so much even though you already have two amazing children. People can be critical of someone longing for more children even if they already have a family, but they don't know how it feels to have a dream not fully realized. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  14. I am so sorry, Kate. I know what it feels like to be where you are, and it made my chest tighten just reading today's entry. I will pray for you and Ed.

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  15. There are no words :-( Sending you love & peace.
    ~ Jen Semple

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  16. I am sorry Kate. I will pray for you.
    Michele

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  17. I am so sorry Kate. Prayers...

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  18. Lots of prayers for you today and always! As someone who has went through many obstacles and devastating losses while starting my family, I understand your devestation, and know and share your pain.
    Thank you for sharing it with us, i know it is not easy, but you have helped so many, not that that comforts you now, but i hope that it does in the future. Your family is loved and prayed for my more than you will ever know! Thank YOU & God bless!

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  19. I've been reading your story since you first started on CaringBridge, yet I've never commented before. I'm so sorry. I know there are no words that can ease the pain you are feeling right now. Prayers are going out to you and your family.

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  20. I am so sorry and I will be praying for you to feel peace.

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  21. Sending hugs to you, Ed and the boys

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  22. I am so sorry. I pray that God opens other doors for you. My heart goes out to you. God Bless.

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  23. I am so sorry.
    - Fidi (from old ivillage boards)

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