Ed and I are two very lucky people. We feel lucky to have found each other...and lucky to have created two very beautiful, very happy boys.
Gavin and Brian adore each other. Lately, Brian has been trying so hard to interact with Gavin. He'll take his hand and try to lead Gavin to do what he's doing - and sometimes gets pretty bummed when Gavin doesn't budge. The other day Ed even found Brian attempting to play hide and seek with Gavin. Brian went into the hall closet which has a sliding door...and Gavin crawled up and pushed the door open to reveal Brian in a fit of giggles.
We love having two boys. And as you know, we have tried and tried...and tried...to have a third sibling. Since our wedding day we have endured eight miscarriages and Darcy's tragic stillbirth due to a cord accident at 5 1/2 months. I've written before about how dreadful infertility is. But I've also written about hope. And for some strange reason...I still have hope.
We are embarking on a new journey. And, once again, we are taking all of you along with us.
Ed and I have decided to try one last time for a baby. And we have chosen to use an egg donor. I felt if we were to try again for a pregnancy, this was our only option. My eggs seem to be on the crappy end of the quality scale so it's likely we will keep getting the same, sad result if we use them. But because of the generosity of one woman (who is an anonymous donor) giving us one single cell from her body, we will have a MUCH better chance of getting - and staying! - pregnant. The success rate using a young, healthy woman's eggs are over 50%. We are very excited...but we also decided that if this doesn't work, we will be done. For real this time. And that will be okay.
We have also decided that this will not be a secret. If we are lucky enough to get pregnant, this child will always know about the wonderful angel that lent us a cell from her body. He (or she) will learn that because of that one cell, Mommy was able to grow him in her tummy...nourish him...give birth to him...and love him. Egg donation is a wonderful gift. I hope that you'll pray along with us that we'll be delivering that gift in less than a year.
In other - equally amazing news, Brian peed on the potty tonight!!! He told me he had to go...and he really went! Boy did we have an exciting dance party tonight at our house. For many reasons!!!!
As always, we appreciate your support, prayers and love!