Last night I found myself growing more and more anxious. I was definitely anxious for the procedure today. Tons of things were flying through my head...all the "what ifs". I also started feeling anxious about our trip. Five days away from my boys is - *gulp* - hard to imagine. I literally stared at the ceiling or at my clock until close to 4am. This morning was rough.
As the morning went on I started getting into it. Packing, organizing, cooking, and even getting set up on Skype. Katja and I had a trial run - I talked to her all the way from my bedroom! I'm so happy that I'll be able to have video chats with the boys...it makes me feel so much better.
After lunch Ed and I made our way to the doctor's office. I was prescribed a Valium, but only took half. Half was enough - I was definitely a little loopy! The Hysteroscopy sucked - I won't get into the gory details of why. I think I broke Ed's hand squeezing it during the worst parts. But soon it was over and the doctor proclaimed that my "Uterus and Fallopian Tubes are Textbook Perfect!" I need to get that on a bumper sticker.
With that behind me, I'm feeling ready to leave. We are very excited...but I'm going to miss the boys so much. Gavin has been so sweet and cuddly lately - full of smiles and even random arms around my neck when I hug him, which is so rare!
I'm going to miss seeing him play all day in his very laid back way. For those of you who have been following since Gavin was a baby...isn't it amazing to see him so casually leaning on the coffee table to play with a toy? How far he has come...
And Brian. He makes me laugh every day. He's so happy and funny and, if I can say so, so darn cute!!
Lately, he has been requesting books that are from my childhood collection. My Mom saved my books and they are all in such wonderful condition! The one below is a recent favorite that he requests multiple times a day. It's a very old (like me) Dr. Seuss. I honestly could read to him all night if it weren't for him having to sleep and all. *wink*
I am bringing my computer mainly so I can check in at home. It's possible that I might write a blog post once or twice...but I'll probably update more on Facebook with photos and news from the boys at home. Feel free to send me a friend request if you'd like to follow along! My page can be found by clicking the Facebook button at the top right of the page.
Mommy and Daddy are going to come home soon, boys...and we're going to be better parents and even more in love when we do! A win for us - and a win for you!!
I will miss you, Bugaboo!